Tuesday, May 28, 2013

Another Year Older

First, let me apologize for my falling off the face of the blogosphere lately. I have a lot of new followers, mostly thanks to Allie's April giveaway. Thanks for stopping by... I promise better posts than this one to come :) There haven't been posts here in a long time, and I haven't even been reading or commenting blogs like I had been. My Bloglovin feed currently holds over 1,100 unread posts. I really didn't plan to be gone for so long, or to really be gone at all. So what's been going on?
Things have been bad, y'all... real bad. 
Around the middle of April, I felt myself slipping back into a deep depression. I don't know why, and I'm not even sure there was one 'cause' of it.... but it got ugly. 

I didn't want to do anything. I didn't want to go anywhere. It took enormous amounts of energy to even get off of the couch on certain days... and there were days that I didn't.  I didn't want to blog, I didn't want to do anything other than lay around and play Candy Crush and watch TV, and even those activities weren't fulfilling. I'd been in this place before, but it hadn't been this bad in a long time. I can't even really put into words how I was feeling, or why exactly I felt that way. Some of you know what I'm talking about. I hear people saying that depression isn't a real thing, or that it really isn't a sickness... well, I was sick. 

I'm feeling better now. Things aren't perfect, but they are definitely better than they were. Happier times ahead for sure. 

Today is my birthday. 28 years old. It is so hard for me to fathom that I'm 28. I remember when I thought 30 was old, and now, well, I'm knocking on it's door. Where has the time gone? It feels just like yesterday, I was graduating High School... really, it was 10 years ago. 

I have no fun birthday plans for today. I'm not even really that excited about my birthday. Five years ago, when I turned 23, I wrote this post, and to be honest, nothing much has changed.  Today will probably feel like just another day. 

I'll be back tomorrow, with regular posts. I have some stuff to catch up on, and some stuff to write about. Thanks for sticking with me while I was gone. 
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3 comments:

  1. First of all, HAPPY BIRTHDAY! Secondly, I had been wondering where you were. I've just been a bad blogger friend and didn't email. I guess it's kind of weird when you only "know" someone through blogging. You don't want to seem nosey or anything. Anyway...I am so sorry to hear what you're going through. My husband has some mild depression and I've seen it's effects firsthand. It's no joke! My thoughts and prayers are with you and I'm glad to see you back!

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  2. Happy birthday! I hope you're feeling better, or at least getting to that point. Looking forward to you blogging more!

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