Wednesday, September 28, 2011

Music Monday, er, Wednesday - Blessings

Remember how I said I might not make it every week... week 2, fail... So, I'm posting 2 days late :)

This song has been in my head all week... Multiple times a day, I will find myself just humming parts of it. I think I first saw it posted on someone's Facebook page, and since then, I've been listening to it a lot.  Such a great message... Just listen to it, and the lyrics will speak to you, especially if you find yourself going through a trial or a difficult time in your life right now.

Blessings -- Laura Story

Friday, September 23, 2011

Breakdown Here...

Earlier this week, I had a bit of a breakdown... I knew it was coming, and one small thing at work pushed me over the edge, and I just couldn't take it anymore.  Being a full time student, and working full time is a lot harder than I thought.  I'm struggling with the balance of things. I know a ton of people do this all the time, but I'm struggling.

I know that I haven't written a lot here lately about all of the things happening in my life, but I feel like my plate is full... things are falling off in fact. I have to figure something out soon, because if everything keeps going at this pace, I can't keep up.

Any tips on how to juggle so many balls?

Monday, September 19, 2011

Music Monday: Slow Fade

In an attempt to start blogging more, I'm going to try to start weekly features.  Try being the operative word in that sentence.  This needs to become a habit for me... like checking email or facebook.  I love blogging and I have a lot to say, but I never set aside time for it. If I miss a few weeks here and there, don't beat me up too bad... I'm trying!

So, for Music Mondays, I will feature a song (obviously) that has either been on my mind lately, or has some meaning to me or whatever... its a very broad category, so there's lots of room for me to do whatever I'm feeling at the moment... Here's the first installment!

Casting Crowns: "Slow Fade"

This song came on my Pandora station the other day, and I'm not sure if I have heard it before, but I can't stop listening to it.  On Saturday, I was working a festival with Tupperware, and they had a Praise and Worship team singing for awhile, and this was one of the songs that they had in their set.

For some reason, this song has really spoken to me this week (a lot of Casting Crowns songs do).  If you've been reading this blog for any amount of time, you know that I've struggled a lot with "giving myself away."  As I look back at the last 8 or so years of my life (since high school), there wasn't one particular event that has caused me to get to the point where I am now... it has definitely been  a slow fade from the person that I used to be. I didn't crumble in a day.

And just as gradual as the process to "crumbling" has been, the journey to feeling whole again is just as gradual.  I think that over the past few months, I have taken some steps in the right direction, but its going to take some time, and some work on my part.  I have to work to be happy, to feel complete, and some days, that is a lot more work than other days.

Friday, September 16, 2011

What If...

What if it never happens for me?  What if I never find that one person that I'm supposed to spend the rest of my life with? What if I never have kids? What if those personal goals that I've set for my life and all the dreams that I've had never come to be? Everyone says to be patient, that it will happen in time... but believe me, that is a lot easier said than done.  Its hard to wait around for something that you KNOW will happen... you know, like Christmas or your birthday... but its a lot harder to wait for something that may never happen. I hate feeling like this.. but it is what has been on my mind for the past couple of days.

Tuesday, September 6, 2011

Starting Over

So, if I'm going to do this blogging thing right, I think that I need to start over completely.  I thought about moving the site, but I decided it was just too much hassle... so I have decided to get a fresh start here.  I have completely redesigned things, so take a look around and let me know what you think.  I will continue to work on things over the next few days (as time allows) and will *fingers crossed* start blogging more... if anyone still reads...

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